Selfishness

I am honest-to-God-cross-my-heart-and-hope-to-die so effing pissed off right now that I could smash everything around me to pieces so small that atomic structures would be ruined so badly that all of them would no doubt collapse in on themselves like a black hole made up of computer, guitar, stereo, bed, and empty beer can. Since when do effing people get off on being so G.D. selfish? Whether it’s the chick at work who bothers me because I’m doing the sodoku after she asked me to make a copy of it, which I told her I left by the microwave, who turns around without even a thank you, then 15 hours later when I’m still at work the same effing puzzle is there, still blank and untouched, to people who want the best of all worlds and tell you they want to eff other people to “experience” things before they leave, I effing hate it.

Seriously, weak-ass mother-effing people need to just cut the shit and start worrying about something other than “me, me, me” for a change. Personal gain is all anybody cares about, the smaller the gain it seems the more willing they are to cut out YOUR effing throat and then stab you in the back with your own effing teeth and strangle you with your own effing vocal cords. Meanwhile, nobody has the balls to tell you what’s really going on, and lead you on like some trout on a stringer barely being kept alive on the water’s edge, just to keep you fresh.

Look around. When’s the last time somebody actually did something for you when they would not gain a damn thing out of it? If you’re like me, surrounded by these effing selfish a-holes, you can’t even remember. And I know what all you are thinking: well stop being like that, stop doing things for people and being so lame. But can I help it if that’s how I was raised, and if because of my general overall view of human nature as neutral, yet can be corrupted or built up by society (see Locke and Rousseau’s philosophies). However, in the society that we’re in, we’re taught from an early age that we can “do anything, go anywhere” and as a result are also prodded to do that by any means necessary. I say it’s complete bullsh*t and something’s gotta give. But really, this crap pisses me off, I can’t even type anymore about it because I just want to pound my keyboard. Maybe more later.